take for eg, it;s my colleague birthday but i did not realise until they bought the cake and i was not like asked to chip in...even if they don't ask, i will definitely chip in cos it's her birthday. Also, i was asked to join in the birthday celebration but as they were gathering ppl, i have urgent things to attend to hence they did not ask me to join in...
i was doing my work until the birthday gal passed me a slice of the cake and i felt so guilty that i did not managed to join in her celebration. i mean i expect ppl to ask me to join in, yea? but who cares? cos i m condemned as BUSY which is true.
now they are on their way to marina, i did not know until the birthday gal told me and ya...it's the same thing/feeling. i told them to give me time to prepare and so i can join them but in the end, i did not go and ended up writing here. i don think they did it on purpose maybe cos i m unreachable (they cannot find me..)..now i don know whether i am finding excuses to cover up my unhappiness...
not only that, they have arranged to go to expo that fri to do their nails. yes, i was not asked to go cos maybe i stay in the west while they in the east or north east. in the end, they did not go cos some unforseen circumstances cropped up.
come to think of it, i think the export gal flared up at me cos of an email which i replied seemed rude to her. if she has such reaction, it means that the feeling of dislike and unhappiness has been kept in her inner conscience for a long time and so her interpretation of my email causes her to flare up. imagine the hard knock on the door...
fine, i don want to dwell on it anymore as i m feeling very very moody and i find the excuse that my addiction is not appeased as i did not see any eye candy for the past 2 days! ahahahh...yup...
this terrible personality..
i hate it.
whatever you want here