yes, it is very hard. the saying goes 'time heals all wound', when will this time be? every single day, yes, working days and weekends alike, i am thinking of the same person. this feeling really sucks and i felt weak and useless for doing so.
is it because of the emptiness in my life that makes me feel this way? i am on a job hunt but not making any progress on that. in work, there is a lot of undone tasks and projects which are making me sick. especially with the changes and unknown future. i am contemplating to take up a course on communication and design but the upfront fee is pulling me back. worst, this is a promo offer which only limit to the jan intake.
talked to my sis about this and she said tt i am forever learning and not working to earn my money back in the investment on my degree course. she is right. once i have more savings through higher salary,i can further my studies on stuff tt i wanted to do. like now, it's PR, communication and design. will they sustain thereafter? this is because once i am settled into a new job which may or may not be the same job scope and industry,i have different ideals. hence, are new year resolutions meant to be kept or break?
i have heard many said tt one should have a dream and goal. work towards it and you will have a fulfilling life. hack, i dun even know what i want - eventually. why am i always so lost and indecisive? i need to be firm and focus on my much needed goal. i do not want to be a frog who stucks her head around, wanting the best of both world. there is no such thing as best of both world.
i stayed in the same company for 4 years for my education and the people here are really nice. the tradeoff will of course be the monetary terms because i took unpaid leave to study! what can u expect??
so, i really need to set on my goals and focus.
wish me luck and i shall update soon.
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