is there such thing as colleagues being friends? i feel like so out of place again, i do not know what is getting into me!
i am getting irritated and i feel that my heart will stop any moment as i am totally sick and tired of the current life and the people around me..i do not mean my friends or colleaugues..just a few that totally sucks!
No point elaborating on it as it wastes my energy typing
oh no..i have not bought any prezzies for thanking my forwarder for their help..
i think i am one fickle bitch.
i am gradually losing the enthusiasm and the feeling. It's no longer fun and i am feeling irritated instead. He's throwing tantrums! i just..ARGH..damn..it's ok..this kind of outcome should be expected but whether it's sooner or later..
Now, it has come..FInE!
Stupid
i never thot things would turn out like that...mixed signal
i acted blur to avoid your oncoming proposal and you have blatantly expressed these terms of affection and i should not turn a blind ear and eye to it..although i enjoy the proces. Yes, i know u care for me and i only regard u as a big bro..yes, i admit at times i missed you but your insistence and existence has made me a lil more reliant and wanting to be closer. however i still think it will not work out. firstly, i m always joking and trying to joke my way through your affection of words and what not. secondly, geographical distance.
maybe this is the first time that i was paid much attention to and i want to be rational and not lose it to the temporary temptation. if i continue like this, i will be very unprofessional and from there i do not know how to clear up the mess...
i am dragging day by day and darn, i should be too friendly and curious to start a lil personal conversation.ya, i m losing the grip and whole day long i am imagining things that i am so sure that it will not happen even if you come to singapore.
these few weeks, job is very stressful and i do not know if i am helping the company or am i making things worse.
i just felt so pent up because of my current position that i am cut off from the outside 'world'. i am not close to my colleagues now and i have to proactively mixed with them..but where can i find the time? and there are things which they hid from me...i thot so..anyway, i am sensitive.
my bosses are good to me and i really appreciate that but i am very frustrated with the workflow here, definitely. shouldn't comment any more.
Jesse Mcartney: "why is love so hard to find?"
Everyday I look around Seems that no one's ever satisfied Could it be, that underneath, We've all got something to hide?From the moment we arrive We want to fill the space insideWe all need to feel aliveCHORUSIf it's love that keeps us breathin' Gives us something to believe inIs it fear that makes us blind?Tell me, why is love so hard to find?If we hear so much about it And we can't go on without itLet the mystery unwindTell me, why is love so hard to find?All I know is when you find itEven earth can feel like you're in heavenTell me now, unlock the secret Help us all to find the hidden treasureFrom the moment we arrive We want to fill the space insideWe all need to feel alive
REPEAT CHORUS Why is love so hard to find Tell Me Why is love so hard to findWhy is love so hard to find (baby)Tell Me Why is love so hard to findDon't you knodw I'm never gonna give up 'til I find the love?I'll be searchin' the whole world overTo find my love...Why is love so hard to find (why)REPEAT CHORUS(2)(Why is it so hard)
and this is how i feel when he expresses at times subtlely:
I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulI know that you are something special To you I'd be always faithfulI want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty faceI don't want just anyone to holdI don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYour beautiful soul, yeahYou might need time to think it overBut im just fine moving forwardI'll ease your mind If you give me the chanceI will never make you cry c`mon lets tryI don't want another pretty faceI don't want just anyone to holdI don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulAm I crazy for wanting youBaby do you think you could want me too I don't wanna waste your timeDo you see things the way I do I just wanna know if you feel it tooThere is nothing left to hideI don't want another pretty faceI don't want just anyone to holdI don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna holdI wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soulYou beautiful soul, yeah
to be continued..
i hate the current situation. i have a bad job in my work, not to say that i almost neglected my studies. i do not know to describe the feeling. i think the hormones are acting up..PMS.
dec..sucks..up and down..
gg to that seventeen queen of queen is not a great idea after all, not very enthu as i feel a lil outcast..all 4 uni students, just feel a different breed. don belong to the scene...
