been getting that feeling again...
vexing!
is the desire too strong or the signal/omen is suggesting that my personal life should have changes?!! haha..i hope so..
however, the urgency is to complete studies and save as much as possible to pay school fees.
空虚的感觉会令一个人失去理智。一旦失去， 连自己都不知道生活的目标和现实的存在。。。真的好可怕！
我讨厌阴天的风冷得那么刺痛只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞昨天的风筝在角落被谁丢到了路口我很不想让你找到离开的理由每一夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶梦你微笑但是旁边的人不是我天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中不想装作脆弱也不想爱得懦弱其实我非常爱你不想失去你难道我没有权利说我不愿意你给了他的吻虽然只有余温可知道我多渴望抓住你的心我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心我每天假装开心害怕你离去可不可以任性求求你不要去藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你可不可以任性求求你不要去藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你
以上是‘其实还爱你’的歌词
I felt like a loser...
i feel that if i do not carry on reading my papers, i will die of ignorance.
yea, my history sucks..realised that history is vital to the happenings in today's world...it is the histoey which taught us why the present work in this way... but with history, mistake should not repeat itself.
my language sucks.
i feel so lost.
i need to start an action for my goal but no motivation yet. whenever i think that i have exams in 3 months time...sianz arh.
i should scout for good Japanese Language school. Then next is Korean? Arab? French?
Business chinese. i also realised that my chinese sucks after my boss told me to type out his chinese letter. i was like 'what are these words combination??' 'do they even exist at all?'
so u can see how shallow my chinese is!!!
Translator, i wanna be one. but i think i should start off with terminology first.
Ai ya, i need to realise the first step before i talk big about the others la... LOL
it's time to update bloggie la
as usual..it's work and studies!
haha..been to a gay club and st james for the 1st time. not bad. quite an experience. lol
mm...exam is going to be in july and i am very vexed because there are four modules and i have to take leave. long leave. on average i have to take 4 days leave in a week. the exam is spread within the two weeks so this means eight days of leave la!!!
worse still, 11 July is the last day of marketing module and it's my 20th birthday!
this year's mother's day is a normal affair. had dinner in a coffeshop and i offered to pay for the meal but mum don wan. haha..i really prepared the $$ la. but i know she really appreciated it...
dad should be coming back soon.
ah mah misses him. the day before i went to ah mah's place and it's really been some time since i visited my grandparents. so heartwarming to see them...:)
been missing classes for economics cos of roadshows at suntec then last sat was rushing stuff at office.
anyway, i am always busy!!
even the redang trip,jie tong is organising. now, jun cannot go cos of her operation...sad..now still waiting for tian and tong decision...i hope all four of us can go!!
crazy about wu zun, he's a cutie!! how i yearn for a guy like him..HAHA
anyway, this month is a period of more challenging stuff happening.
i was asked to handle corporate with my ROM! oh my, i am actually burden with tons of stuff la...cos tt time i have a new colleague in my dept but due to family commitments, she has left the company so it's me alone!!
ok la, i cannot believe that i left aside my work and handle corporate sale for 1/2 day. it's quite an experience though! it's good to have a new experience.
now, i am thinking of taking up wealth management after my management studies degree...
mm...what should i do? my degree is called the broadest specialisation as my lecturer said.
i think i may quit my job during the 3rd year to handle studies and projects...but how about my living expenses? i think i should take up part time job ba...
when i am in the last year of studies, other peers will be in their 2nd last year...
and i will be in the full working force by then.actually i am considered in the working force but i still think myself as student cos i don get the GST offset package mah!! below 21 years leh..sianz...work for 1 yr and 5 months liao!!
vexed...
i do not know what i want, what i am doing and for what purpose..
i should be thinking of my path for the next 5 years
for the next 2 years, i will still be working and studying.
i wanna take up a language course.
i wanna learn a dance.
i wanna learn a music instrument.
i wanna brush up my english/chinese (translation)
i wanna learn a new sport
i wanna go for holiday.
i wanna expand my network
i wanna learn a dialect.
after these 2 years, i will look for other jobs. but what should i look out for? will i be able to stay that long? i think i may change job every 2 to 4 years? as Ms Tie said that the career of the future is no longer an iron rice bowl. structural change causes ppl to change job.
actually, i would prefer to work overseas, maybe in China for a MNC. challenging! since i have no commitments, should be ok.
just like my aunt, can retire early liao...
yes, my aim is for early retirement! of course, must work smart in the process mah, then u thot $$$ just drop from the sky??
HAHAH
