Take for example, today's lunch. i know i have been here less than three months but since we go for lunch almost everyday, why is it that because it's her birthday that i'm not invited to chip in for lunch and the cake with her usual gang.Initially i was ok with the arrangement that i go for early lunch with the others but i did not expect that another colleauge who's here less than two months is invited to chip in...the problem is they did not like her initially and i am the one who's friendly to her and i am not being pretentious. Now they are okay with her. Why? Guess i am too sensitive. Anyway i don't have much attachent for my young colleauges( 20 to 25 years old). Actually i can say that i am very quiet in their group. i talk only when necessary. For those who know me to be quite talkative or friendly, this is another side of me.
That colleague who's only here for two months asked me" are you usually this quiet?". At that moment i am quite stunned. I answered "it depends on the situation, if i want to be spontaneous and outgoing, i can choose to be la!" Then with further thoughts, i think i am really quiet and i don't usually contrribute to the spontaneity that my younger sis has. i dunno why. i choose to be and feel that way.
I think i am more 'on' with my older colleauges who have family. I hit it off with them well...actually part of the reason is because they themselves are real friendly and funny. For my younger colleagues, i think i am really quiet and how do i communicate with them when my life is so so boring! oops! i am childish too..please feel free to interview my sisters on how i behave at home! No No No...don't..it's so embarrassing!
mmm....what should i do?!
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